It was years ago but I think it was life in general, I used to be this happy giggly kid, the kind that made sure everyone was smiling and happy, try to light up a room, my dad of course died when I was younger from alcohol and smoking I’ve the years, I would always try to make everyone happy but the thing that killed me the most was I could never make friends. As soon as I started school I was so excited until it came to first grade, I started getting bullied and it just got worse over time, My whole life kids just naturally loved to bully me, physically, verbally, anything they could. The worst part was I thought it was normal, that maybe I could still make a friend and be happy, high school came and went I had a group of ‘friends’ since middle school, but it was around junior year where it all blew to absolute shit, my friends left me, the boyfriend I had at the time was an asshole and called me nasty words after I broke up with him, long story short I was in a deep inner turmoil because of everything, I came out as gay and at the time was still bullied, struggled with sh and ED, I moved schools immediately after they started to treat me like shit too. I never stopped trying to make people happy and my home life wasn’t well either, I just remember I used to smile no matter the pain, now I can’t brighten up that same room ever again. From both the trauma in my life and mental health I struggle with on a daily basis. Nobody truly knows the effect you can make on someone. Keep this in mind before picking on someone.