I have this complicated fantasy of falling in love on a documentary style reality show on hbo. The show is actually about this famous rapper musician (writes, composes, etc his albums with no features...think if Beck was an urban rapper) and his wealthy orphaned manager best friend.

Basically a low key entourage in some way but rapper is Kendrick Lamar black and the manager is a nonpracticing Jew (I can't think of any similar famous Jews to how I imagine this guy) and they met when the rapper got a scholarship to private school as a young boy. Manager's parents died when he was a late teen and both him and them were only children. Only relative he really had was a great uncle that he hated so rapper was more like family. So they're super tight. They're relationship is basically season 1.

Season 2 I enter the picture as a complicated love interest of the manager that the rapper best friend kind of distrusts (he has issues with women...only women around him he has slept with unless they're family) and dislikes me because I'm not the typical type of female he's so used to using and is sort of jealous of having to share his friend's attention all of a sudden.

The backstory between the manager and I prior to season 2: I'm just some odd girl the manager met like a year and a half prior to me coming on the show while he was on a sabbatical to deal with the girl he last loved dying after cheating on him with a former richy rich best friend. Anyway, I like him at the time I met him while on vacation because we have this cosmic connection that even he is stunned by but he's no shape to entertain more than my friendship. Kind of hurts my feelings but whatever I can see he's hurting for reasons he never tells me so I just decide to try to brighten his days. I have no idea that he's wealthy because he looks quite disheveled most of the time and I actually struck up a conversation with him because I was stunned at how attractive he was to be homeless (exactly how I start a conversation with him which gives him his first genuine laugh in awhile). We part ways when my vacay ends but keep in touch passively. I send him a message saying I'll be in his area which is SoCal (his sabbatical was not where he lives) cause I am now taking a minisabbatical and he is actually excited to see me again cause of how we genuinely connected way back when and it was nice to meet someone who wanted nothing from him but to share a few laughs when he needed them most.

My involvement in season 2 comes about when we meet up and he has cleaned himself up and all my feelings come back even stronger cause I never seen him looking so healthy and hot but I'm not interested in anything more than his friendship for some complicated reasons. We reconnect again and he's very excited to have me around. He wants me to stay but tells me he's doing this show but it could be fun if I'm a part of it. I'm taken aback that he is who he is and knows who he knows (the rapper bf is like Kanye famous but way more charming and pleasant to the masses despite being a bit heavy musically... Yet I don't listen to rap so never watched the show although I heard about it just never put it together he was on it). I say f! it and agree to spend my sabbatical hanging out.

Season 2 is basically the tension between his friend and I (kinda a "Harpo, who dis woman?" situation), the tension between the manager and I as our feelings grow for each other but he wants to move forward and I don't, and then me dealing with adjusting to basically being a socially awkward normie in Hollywood who isn't impressed by the material things and status but is also always star struck when encountering a talented famohs. It's comical but also infuriating at times for viewers.

Season 3 somehow morphs into more about the manager's and I now romantic relationship after much of the "will they? Wont they?" of season 2 and the fact that the rapper now has a baby by one of his many disposable women. The rapper decides to take a break from music to be a ft father to his unexpected son since somehow the mother isn't in the picture for long but before he does he starts working on this unique major album that people are just salivating for. By this season, the rapper bf has accepted me into his friend's life but he still sort of shirks the idea of befriending a woman whom he hasn't slept with.

Each fantasy I have is an episode filled with quirky casual dialogue since everyone has a supreme level of comfort with each other.