Delayed sleep phase disorder is a thing. I have all the symptoms. People will just guilt trip you like it’s a moral failing when it’s biological. You can fight it with all your willpower and do better, but as soon as you let go it defaults back.

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/14295-delayed-sleep-phase-syndrome-dsps

I realize there are bigger issues, but sometimes I want to cry at how much easier being a morning person sounds. They also are completely rewarded by society as being more upstanding and virtuous.

I can never really get into my work and resent every job because of how every morning I feel hungover and miserable, and I don’t drink and always hydrate. The day is mostly spent strategizing how to not fall asleep. I’m irritable. And sometimes overeat as a pick me up. My best creative work is about 8 or 9pm until 1am or so.

Growing up a certain parent was ignorant of internal clocks, and constantly harassed me about “choosing” to stay up late “thinking.”

It’s not the words biggest issue, but morning people do have it easier.

One time my morning friend complained about a party I planned being too late; by 9 she was ready to end it. I said to imagine feeling that way every single morning, but nobody cares, they think you’re weak, and you don’t get to complain.

If I had three wishes, waking up happy and early would be one.