Sounds like you want to embark on some fantasy looking for love. Some people are crazy about love. I found the experience painful and traumatizing. I've had some awful experiences and don't really share the sensation anymore and am filled with lethargy of finding a new piece of shit bitch...

I thought I would make my own soul mate out of star dust and all wonderful things. I have done some rough drafts in the past and put her together back in a few games as my character design. She's a bit of a couch potato and enjoys binge gaming, She's amazing at math and made me a cool fortune on the stock market. She's quiet, utilitarian and never raises her voice to me. I do not know about he secret toilings but she seems integral and trustworthy. How fascinates me in every way with her magic.

I'm just kidding, I'm not that gratuitous nor would I indulge in some warped fantasy of me making my own girl friend.