Soo I knew it was probably going to hurt me, but then I had people telling me if it's someone you love and trust and you just relax it will feel good.

Umm. No. It fucking hurt. I bled. It hurt the 2 times after that. Then we broke up. And then i was scared as well as on the depo shot (parents found out) which complicated things down there (inflammation) and that did not help with the following partners.

No one told me that it would take me 3 years after the first time to finally enjoy sex. No one told me different methods of birth control could have an effect on enjoyment of sex. No one told me that if you wait a stupid long time to get back in the saddle- it will hurt again.