Finally stop stressing over everything and be happy for once.
Money is the #1 cause of my high blood pressure, anxiety, depression, etc. I've spent hours every day applying for jobs yet never hearing anything back except other candidates being chosen. I've applied to Walmart, McDonald's, ever fast food and retail job I can find. Nothing. Hours a day filling out those stupid surveys, signing up for accounts on their websites, entering my information, etc.
I'm so tired of everything. I'm on my last threads. I spent every dollar I had buying a course in order to get my ET card from the state. If I can't find a job after all that, then I'm finished with everything. The trades are supposed to be highly in demand with a massive shortage of workers, yet I'm not seeing any indicators of these such things. Everything states I must have years of experience yet only pay minimum wage.
I don't have connections or networks. There's no one I can ask for a job, because my entire family and everyone else that I know lives off welfare. I've experienced extreme poverty my entire life. My family has survived on less than $10k a year living off SSI payments. I'm not going to do that. This is not a life I'm interested in living.
I'm close to just hanging myself. I can't do this anymore.