I'm still currently in high school and my worst memory would be my heart breaking. :/ This is probably a really common situation, but here it goes. There was this girl that moved to my middle school four years ago. I'm not kidding it was literally love at first sight. My heart ached for her for so many years. I know, I bet a lot of you guys would say "what would a high schooler know about love?". Since the day I've met her I couldn't get her off my mind. Over the span of four years she was running around my head. She became one of my closest friends until about a six months ago. Now some background info. Everyone in my circle of friends and pretty much the whole school knew that I liked this girl. There wasn't person I knew that didn't know this fact. So after Halloween I walk out to the parking lot after school to go to my car. As I approached my car I saw her and my best friend eating face... my heart dropped at that very moment. Really, I was shocked. After that incident I found out that they've been talking behind my back. I started having literal chest pains over the whole thing. To make a long story short I stopped talking to them for the next four or so months. At this point I was almost done getting put back together and she comes back into my life. I don't know why but I fell for her again and my feelings came back for her. Several months pass by we're best friends again. I later found out that she actually really liked me and I've been noticing that she's been acting differently around me. There was a certain sparkle in her eye that wasn't there before. Of course I had to act upon this! So, I asked to Prom and she said yes!!! I was happier than ever. About a month later I found some bad news. Apparently her and another one of my closest friend had a thing going on months ago, but that wasn't the thing that got me mad. The fact that this kid fingered her in my bed twice got me furious. Though before that I told him that I didn't like her but in reality I low-key did like her. Of course that was my fault. I don't about you guys but I find it really disrespectful for someone to do that in another person's bed especially while you're in the room. On top of that he did it again after I asked her out to prom... There was some back and forward drama and I agreed to still go to prom with her. what she didn't know was that i planned on ending things with her afterwards. So prom went on as if nothing had happened and we all had a blast. At the end i told her that i had something to give to her. It was a letter and on it was a rose. I handed it to her and left. The letter read "This was one of the hardest decision I had to make so far. I've really thought about where we stand in our friendship for the past two weeks, but before we get to that let me tell you this. You're one of the most greatest friend that I could have ever asked for. I'm so glad that we crossed paths back in middle school, nothing could ever change that. Somewhere in between those four years of friendship you took my heart and I completely fell for you. I don't know if you ever knew about this, back in eighth grade I bought a necklace that had two hearts with a purple crystal in the middle knowing purple is your birthstone color. Took me a while to find one that I thought was perfect for you. I finally found one. I bought the necklace in hopes that I would give it to you when we were in a relationship within that near future... A few months later, Anthony bought the necklace off of me for Julia. I was so bummed because you were never the one to wear my necklace. I've always wanted to be that guy by your side, though you never saw me more than as a friend. I think my intentions were clear to you. I believe I've established that since the beginning. You know, I reserved myself from any other girl just for you while not knowing if we would actually take our relationship the next step, but that wasn't the case for you. It always broke my heart to see you with other guys, no offense, that I thought weren't good enough for you. It felt as if I gave you my whole heart but you turned around and gave it away to someone else. It's one of the worst feeling that one could experience. Fast forward to junior year on halloween. You invited me to go sleep in your car with you after the party was over. I thought this would've been a good time to talk to you about moving past as 'just friends' and don't get the wrong impression that's all I wanted nothing more than just talking. Having a heart to heart conversation was more than enough for me. I don't know why, but at the time I walked into the party thinking that our feelings were mutual. Anyways, the party goes on then I eventually see you with Ben. I felt shut down, but that was shortly lived until I noticed that you moved on and couldn't stop gravitating towards nick. I had my suspicions but I brushed it off thinking that would've been the last thing to happen... Like really, who would've thought that their own childhood best friend would do such a thing. I have never been so wrong. Do you know how devastated I was when I saw and found out about you and Nick. Do you know how it feels to walk in on your best friend locking lips with the girl that you've thought about at almost every moment since the day you've met? I've never been so heartbroken in my life upon that afternoon right after school. At that very moment my world inside froze and was decimated. Those following few months were the darkest days I've ever had to endure through out the seventeen years being on this planet. My heart was never in that much physical pain up until that moment. You could ask anyone, I completely lost my appetite for about a week or two. I thought I would never talk to either of you ever again, but of course you came back around and some how, just some how, my feelings came right back for you. I never would have thought we even had the slightest chance on being friends, however I was wrong again. While we were puzzling our friendship back together you went ahead and did the same exact thing to me again. It's not like the first time was bad enough. What you did with Michael was a huge slap in my face. You shattered my heart right as I was almost finished picking up the pieces from the last time you crushed it. Not only was it heartbreaking, but that was straight up disrespectful. It still wows me on how two close individuals could do such a thing to me. Honestly, I questioned myself why I'd sill go to prom with you. The answer is so simple. I'm just so blinded by my love for you, I just didn't realize it. I can't be around you anymore. The longer I stay orbiting around you the more it's going to hurt me. I just can't let you do this to me anymore. A lot of people question me why I even stuck around for so long as if nothing had happened. Though, they couldn't see the the pain inside. They said that if they were me, they would've hated you and immediately cut you off. But for some odd reason, I still love you even after all of this drama. It's funny how you could hate loving someone. I always wanted someone to fill this cold empty feeling in my heart when I'm up past twelve am with nothing but the ceiling to keep me company. I hoped that someone would have been you. I guess I was wrong once again. It still kills me to think of what we potentially could have been. So I made up my mind, I'm ending this chapter of my life. You could call me selfish but it's about time I think for me not for the comfort of others (aka you). I can't be around you anymore. It's going to be really hard, but staying around you will only cut the wounds even deeper. Your words only cut my heart like a knife. I'm never going to forget you, trust me I've already tried my hardest. You're always going to be a scar in my heart that I've never asked for. There's a saying that goes "Only time could heal your wounds." I'm sure I'll be over this in the future but you will still have a special/ bleeding place in my heart. Even still, I hope you live a beautiful life just like the person you are. I hope we never cross paths after tonight. Osho once said "If you love a flower, don't pick it up. Because if you pick it up it dies and ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. But is about appreciation." I hope our friendship dies out like that picked flower in your hand. It was great knowing you and now it's time I let go. Our friendship is over. Bye *****." It's been a month later and everything is going good!!!! It turns out that I don't even like her anymore haha. I didnt want to end this so short leaving out a bunch of details but i gotta sleep and wanted to keep it short. XD