I really, really dislike my alcoholic, abusive father in law and the constant stream of bullshit that occurs from being stuck in his orbit. I've been trying to get sober for years with varying success, but this guy does everything shy of force it down your throat, then mock you for drinking.

I tell him I dont want him smoking in my vehicle, he lights up a cigar anyway. I tell him no sugar for my child, he gives him m&ms with breakfast. Now my child won't eat without m&ms being a part of things and throws a massive, epic fit if I wont get them at the store. Thanks, asshole!

I hate how much my kid adores him, and I really fucking hate that he refuses to follow any of our parenting "rules" (little sugar - not the whole cake, eat at the table -play after, No, you are not going out front alone with a hyperactive toddler when drunk and we live next to an incredibly busy street with no fence) I spend all week trying to show him hiw to be a good person, and when I take him to the park, my child is the asshole kid, because he's copying his grandfathers mannerisims. My wife thinks its just a three year old, but I dont see the other kids acting like that.

I cant stand that my wife refuses to pull my son away from that crap.

I've spoken to him numerous times and he's completely unrelentant. Hell, he looks me right in the eyes and says he's going to do it snyway.

Most of all I really hate myself. Because I got sick, wasn't all that stable to begin with, crashed and burned and now we are trapped here.

I'm a failure at everything - but this one, this really hurts.