Fear of death. I have nothing to live for but I still have to hope that things will get better, even if there is no hope left.

I have found out that swimwear that completely covers up my fat labia is no longer cool, even for normal average people. I also found out that I will get fat shamed if I visit my dream country.

With this progressive world, there is no reason for swimwear that covers the butt and labia to become cool again. With the increasing awareness of the health effects of obesity, there is no reason to stop the fat shaming.

I am fat no matter what my BMI is thanks to my cellulite, stretch marks, high body fat percentage and apple shaped body.