I always did really well in school so I never thought I had it. Jr. year I took on some leadership positions at my university, and college just became too much for me. So I went to a Dr. in my town who is notoriously lose with his ADHD drugs and got a vyvanse script. Before I didn't believe ADHD was really as widespread as it is and that it was mostly kids (like me I admitted) who couldn't get their shit done. I just thought I was somehow an idiot/spoiled/etc because I was always losing things, couldn't do more than one thing at once with any competency, literally could not finish things even if it was like a life or death situation, was incapable of holding on to money, and could go on and on on these insane mental tangents. I was so bad that my parents actually got my hearing tested once or twice when I was a kid, because I would forget things they told me to do and they were convinced that my ears weren't working and that I didn't hear things they said and that teachers said to me.

After the initial euphoria of the vyvanse, I began taking it regularly just because I had so many busy days in a row and it was amazing. I didn't feel super different, but I just magically was better at keeping multiple things in my mind at once without mentally collapsing. I could remember details that I didn't have to actively try to remember (and even then end up forgetting). My room stayed clean without me having to put in effort to massively clean it and then have it get dirty over the next few days. It was just always a normal level of clean (this was amazing to me; my room has always been horrendous my whole life and I literally did not know how it happened). I then did some research and realized that I may have actually had ADHD. I saw a psychiatrist, told him everything up front, and got diagnosed for real. It's honestly changed my life and the way that I see myself. Now so much of what I do and say makes sense, whereas before I legitimately thought I was just stupid or something.