I sweat really bad when I talk to someone new and I don’t know what to say. When I get nervous on the job or around people I don’t know I have to piss like 5x as much as normal. I think about simple social mistakes I’ve made for days and it’s hard for me to live down and try again. When I feel like I’m comfortable around somebody and I say something that doesn’t quite fit I reflect on that forever too. I can see my glasses fog up instantly. I do stupid things like take my gloves off, then put them on, take them off, put them on. Take things out of my pocket to put them back in. I check three times to make sure my front door is locked. I check twice to make sure my car is locked.

Unless everybody does this stuff. I’m more certain I have anxiety than depression. I use to play with heavy doses of LSD and I feel like that contributed to my anxiety. I’ve just had a shitty last couple months. Girlfriend left, dad is an addict, i feel bad for my siblings having to transfer schools 3 times a week, I’m doing my best to get out of being a factory rat but I feel stuck, I’m getting pushed back.

That was long but you asked lmao