Yea, I had told him I would previously but when it came to actually that night in question I did not want to do it or be anywhere near him, but low self-esteem, I thought it wouldn't be right or fair to have him come to my place and not go through with it. If I could go back in time I would have stood up for myself and said sorry, you have to leave, I changed my mind. I guess truth be told, I'll still go through with a lot of things I don't want to do if I've agreed to it, that's just life and responsibility, doesn't matter if you changed your mind or not. But I wouldn't put myself in a situation like that, I would see it coming now...blah. Don't even want to post this answer but guess I will now.