Not until a few days ago .. I'll type it down in points ( looks prettier ? )
My ex was my best friend Before we started dating, he came across as a great confident person
At the beginning of our relationship , everything was great and perfect
fast forward a month ..
it's difficult to talk about and explain .. I was always hesitant to tell him about my life and what I have going because he was so judgemental and always made me feel like crap about my self
he would always try to correct me or make me feel like a child because we're five years apart
he would often say things that seemed like they were directed to hurt me and make me feel less about my self.
he became really insensitive .. My best friend lost his dad in surgery ( his father is my sisters father in law and he's my sisters brother in law , his father was obese and wanted to start a new life .. He couldn't work out because of his legs , he had issues with them ) , when I told him about it and the state our families were in .. I was looking for him to comfort me instead he told me that he has no sympathy towards someone who does that to themselves and that I should seek someone else to talk too because I'm being way too " sensitive "
I would get upset and angry with how he acts and whenever I would tell him and try to explain it to him he would make it seem like it's my fault
I blamed my self..
remember how I mentioned he was confident .. Turns out he was just full of him self and cocky..
the amount of times I cried my self to sleep because of him .. >_<
the stress that he was causing me delayed my period for four months and after a week and a few days of our break up .. I got my first period in four months , I thought I missed him but I was really happy
Silly me .. I texted him after our breakup .. For a while I tried to be friends with him and then I realized having him in my life makes me miserable
having him in my life makes me miserable and unhappy about my self ..
I don't know how to describe it .. Or how to talk about it , I talked to a few friends about everything that went down between me and him .. They told me he was emotionally abusing me , they deleted and blocked his number from my phone and deleted him every where else
I'm trying to pull the pieces together and pretending everything is okay .. I feel a so much better that he's out of my life now