Ok. So I owe you all an apology. I came here yesterday thinking I'd get information from the source instead of from random articles on the internet. I can see in hindsight why my offer of "someone to talk to" was ill received, for good reason, and I am sorry. I didn't come here with any preconceived notions or with any agenda of my own, I was acting how I would with anyone. I'm just a middle aged (probably old enough to be some of you's mom or grandma) trying to get info from the source, and I went about it the wrong way.
Again, my apologies for approaching things incorrectly without knowing more. I'll spend more time learning and less time encroaching.