[WP] You are immortal, but can painlessly end your life at the push of a button. After you have lived for hundreds of years, you decide to terminate yourself, only to realize that you have been missing the button for years.

"Stop smiling" I said bitterly. She sipped her tea and looked over the rim at me with laughing eyes; "just give me the run down, whys it such a big deal.

For the 3rd time I'll explain to her "I can't die without the button. I will die when the button is pressed. I don't have the button, and I don't know if someone will press it."

"So you desperately want to find it so you can...?"

I sigh "To end it. I've been around long enough, lost so many people. You've only got a few short years, but I've always been immortal. It's gotten old."

She softened a little and looked away before she fixed me with those laughing eyes again. "So your whole life, you've never worried about death, why now?"

Do I tell her? Could she understand? Did I understand until how many centuries on this earth? "I... I have lived so long here but there are still places I haven't been, experiences untried, even the people in the market I would miss and my heart aches at the thought. All these years and the fear that it could be taken from me, how can I go on, with the uncertainty? I always planned to die when I was ready" I felt hot tears run, the knot in my stomach tightening but as I looked at her it fell away.

Her eyes were serious now as she reached her hand for mine. And in the quite I saw an understanding I'd never had with another. We didn't talk for quite a long time but finally I asked her what to do, with all the fear, the uncertainty: "Between life and death, we live, as best we can."

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