That's the thing, i can easily go without it for days on end. I'm not the "I need to drink" type. It just feels like force of habit. I guess I've built up a tolerance to it because I can drink half a bottle and not feel remotely drunk, just merry. Some days though I can do half a bottle and end up throwing up all night. Doesn't seem to matter whether I have a full stomach or not.

You'd never be able to tell I was drunk either. I know I have a problem because I hide my drinking from my partner. It's got to the point where the guys in the local shop know what I want the second they see me walk in.

I'd love to be tee total, funny thing is I never really drank at all until I had kids (I'm sure some of you can sympathise with me there haha). I don't let my drinking get in the way of being a parent though, when my boys need me I'll always be there for them no matter what.

I must spend about 200 a month on alcohol, sometimes i think of what I could do with that extra cash but a day later there I am in the offy.

Think it's more or a habit than an addiction.