Yes I was unexpectedly sick for months and wanted to cancel and couldn't really do anything wedding planning wise in that time. It has become very stressful trying to do everything now on my own. I have people constantly complaining about things that were out of my control and on top of that people who begged us to come are not coming while many of the others are treating the wedding like a hassle. Several people who are truly important to me can't be there due to medical reasons that just started happening. So overall it is very discouraging and it just seems like I'm lying for something I won't even enjoy. But I guess I just gotta deal with that. I paid for several people's travel expenses as well. I'm. I'm not unhospitable usually just tired. I usually do my best to please others and treat people daily but this is extremely extremely overwhelming at this point. Sorry for the vent session. Also I'm doing EVERYTHING on my own. Literally everything and so much pressure from all angles.