I truly tried my best. I made mistakes i beleive, as all humans do. But my biggest problem is letting go, and not accepting that something won't work. I think i have some "fear of abandonment" thing going on, cause i am so afraid of losing someone and not ever seeing them again, yet that has happened now twice. My friends kept and even strangers i talked to about this, and showed our conversations to after the breakups, reassured me that i did nothing wrong. But having both these girls blame me for being the problem, made me question myself, and despite what other people tell me, i can't help but think they are right. I don't agree with what they say about me, and i truly beleive my intentions are good, and that i am being misunderstood. But i could be wrong.