,is there even a reason for me to live anymore if I don't crack the exam ?

I use a rule for that. i used it with myself, and my answer became no about a year ago today.

The rule is: if you can think of a future in which you are happy (even if it doesn't seem realistic)--in other words, if there is a future in which you would want to be alive---then don't commit suicide yet.

So, for me, for a long time, it was "Things are awful now, but if I can get to this place (have X home, have X career, have X family) in life, it will be worth it to try." If you can thik of something like that, it's worth it to keep going.

Now, if you know that nothing will ever make it worth it, then I would understand considering suicide, because that's where I am, and that's a very rational choice, although you could stick around to make sure for a while.

I do 3D modelling am heavily invested in computers and programming and building robots my skill is generally appreciated but all this doesn't matter because I'm not born in a country where giving the SAT is a viable option , I still would have hope if that were the case .

This makes me think there is a place that if you could get to it, it would be worth it to you to live. But right now you're limited by circumstances....but understand that circumstances can (not "are guaranteed to, but can) change.

So basically, if you still have a future worth fighting for, even if it seems like it couldn't happen, keep going. The point at which i tell people it's reasonable to stop going is when you know you wouldn't care no matter what happened, but I think you can keep going.

But that's just my two cents kind of thing , you know? :/