I am an intern with CA state parks for the state wondering if I should flee now after my term is over?? I have already become depressed and like started drinking like bad drinking after I started my internship here. I believe it is because of the low human social interaction during the day..... I can't stand it. I have considered just up & quitting a few times to just work as a server at the resturaunt to talk with people. I got involved in all this because of volunteering and things at parks and museums and now I just hate this!! Literally I am turning into one of those depressed 9-5 workers who just want to drink on the weekend. I was never depressed before this job the way I am now w/ the moods I get now. Like literally I understand hump day now because you just can't wait for the weekend. I spend it either hiking or drinking with friends . I never had such a difficult time waking up in the morning. Kids my asge and my fam thinks it is so impressive what I do and that I should settle ( well they don't see it as settling they see it as winning) but honestly I have even got suicidal thoughts a few times from all of this because I feel just so trapped. This job isn't good for me and I am trying to manage it; like my work stress and depression and things but sometimes I just let it get the best of me and I go to the hallway to call my boyfriend and just cry for a second and he tells me to do some jumping jacks and get back to work and I do but like I just feel so underwhelmed because I thought this would make me so happy , I mean this job; but it's made me more depressed than I have ever been. I miss volunteering even. I don't have time to do that hardly anymore.