I don’t know how you’ll take this but I have a confession as well. I didn’t rape, but did molest my cousin when she was 6 and I 10. I was an sexually devious boy. I wanted to know what this whole deal was with my tiny finger down there. not a day goes by where I don’t regret what I did and sometimes I cry, hoping I didn’t ruin her life in some way. I am too ashamed to bring it up to her even to apologize (which I know is horrible too as she and you both deserve to be recognized) I hope that his doesn’t trigger you in anyway but I want to apologize to you. I’m sorry your trust was betrayed by someone who should’ve been there for you as family.