Anyone been painted black and then heard from them down the line?

Hell yeah, I have. The splitting has happened recently, I had to go LC (near NC) with her (my ex uBPD friend) for probably... a week or so? She kept messaging me at some points throughout the night and finally gave up around 11 PM the next day. She said various different unrelated things like "you can take this wig off my hands", etc, but there was definitely one message that really struck me as...threatening? And projecting as fuck, as she's the one twisting my (and another person's) words... in fact, she's twisting a lot of people's words...https://i.gyazo.com/0badb3645957baae55f23e981482bd79.png (Name censored for privacy reasons). For example, when I confronted her about what she said about me on her public diary account and told her I would block her/ go NC to give her the space, she twisted my words from "I don't care about the conflict anymore" to "I never cared about you".

I had unblocked her after a week or two after my SO convinced me to (at the time, I was still hoping maybe she'd come back)...hoo boy, she did not. She blocked me after I said, "I'm glad you're doing fine." To make it worse, she went to my SO and not me when asking about a gift's tracking number that I had bought her before I went LC. Because at the time, I really did think that maybe she'd come around...I really did still consider her a friend. After she kept going to my SO and not me.. I really did get angry.

Now, what I'm not particularly proud of is collecting all of her screenshots showing when she was cheating on her ex with another guy and showing it to her ex... who then confronted her about the cheating. Now that I think back at it, it was a shitty ass thing to do and there's really no excusing my behaviour. I'm still trying to come to terms with the fact that it was shitty as the anger is still pretty strong in me, but objectively, it's not the best way to get her to get help for her potential BPD. (I'm sorry. I guess I'm seeking some sort of objective closure to it; to see what I did wrong and to come to terms with the fact that I did do something wrong.)

But yes.. I have not heard from her since. Sometimes I ask people who are in the same classes as her how she's doing. I asked her sister too and apparently her sister is glad I'm not her friend anymore. It's honestly something I should not do but I can't help but at times care for her while being conflicted at the same time I don't really know how to feel at this point. Sadness and anger and hope that she'll get better eventually. I just don't have the energy to be stupidly angry or the energy to be sad. I'm just slowly mourning the end of the friendship.

(Apologies for the rant.)

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