I've gone from not leaving the house at all to going on walks most days and usually at least one social engagement a week, usually dinner with family or music stuff.

last night I convinced my partner to go to a house show and some random guy rubbed my arm and I didn't just let it happen nor did I cause I scene, I just told my partner and we stepped outside. my partner told the host about it but I don't even know who it was and I... there's a million things but I think I handled it well and we went to a less crowded spot after that and I still had a good night so I consider it a win.

my new mantra that I'm using to replace the voice in my head that says "you should just kill yourself" is "you'll do better next time" and I can't learn what to do better unless I learn what I do wrong so I'm trying that out now. so far it's working well.

Thank you for making this thread, op. I needed to talk about this.

congrats on letting yourself be vulnerable! remember, the first step to being good at something is sucking at it.