I'm an alcoholic who spent the first 2 years at university studying genetics before switching. My blood is half Sweden and half russian and I learned that some people just naturally experience alcohol as a more intense high than even morphine or heroin.

It ultimately depends on the individual, but this affinity is way more common among those from cold environments- northern europeans or inuits. This is strange and something I don't fully understand, but tgese domgraphics are for some reason are also prone to hypoglycemia, and hypoglycemics are way more likely to become alcoholics; they performed this study in the 90s where they had kids, like 8 years old, drink a bunch of mountain dew and then monitored the way their bodies reacted. The ones whose blood sugar dropped afterwards were way more likely to become drunks 20 years later.

Anyway, hot damn do I love booze, and also I was hospitalized for hypoglycemia three times when I was a kid.

Anyway, I've always wanted to die from alcohol overdose but it just seems impossible for me. I once was hospitalized with alcohol poisoning, my BAC was .42. I'm a 114 pound woman and had drank nearly a handle of vodka.

I just don't think I can physically drink enough to die from it. But ive been very suicidal before and have always wanted to and definitely tried.