I'm just going to copy and paste my previous post:

Since I told another user some of the reasons why I'm depressed, I may as well tell you as well. Well, it's kind of complex...it's actually lots of different issues which aren't related and one day I just snapped because of all the shit happening in my life but four of the many reasons for my depression are: having to deal with homophobia, having to deal with racism, having a dysfunctional family and every friend I ever made ended up just wanting to be superior to me. My psychologist told me that homophobia and racism probably isn't going to get significantly better in my lifetime and I'll most likely always have to deal with discrimination - which is true. He did say that I could change the way I react and think about it though but that's where it gets complex. The reason why I'm depressed is because of all these issues occurring in the first place and my psychologist admitted that I probably weren't going to get better until these issues are eliminated...but see the problem? These issues are never going to be eliminated. You might just say that I shouldn't spend time with people who discriminate then but once again, it's not that simple, I'm depressed that these discriminations exist in the first place, people actually doing the discriminating just makes it worse. I hope that makes sense?

In regards to travel, I have no interest in it and my psychologist agreed that it would be better for me not to travel. I've heard from non-White friends that discrimination can get really bad overseas and it already hurts to see people getting treated better than me here in Australia all because of things such as race. There's no way I'd cope if I go overseas. I know, some countries have very little racial discrimination but it still exists, I'm depressed because it exists (remember, this is one of many reasons and it's not even the major reason), it doesn't matter how much or little I get of the discrimination, I'll be hurt just by experiencing it or seeing others experience it. I want to end my life painlessly and since it's just bearable enough for me to make it through the day, I think soon would be the best time to end it before it gets too much.