I'm not even going to bother with any of this until I'm above average. Here is my to-do list:

1. Get done with braces (1.25yrs left)

2. Get oral surgery done (~5mo out)

3. Get teeth whitened (yellow from depression)

4. Get done with second course of accutane (5mo left)

5. Lose ~45lbs of fat. (Currently on DNP, a drug that can kill you)

6. Learn to not be bitter at everyone I meet as a defensive mechanism from a life time of bullying from school and previous employer

7. Quell binge eating disorder

8. Stop abusing drugs

9. Take care of depression and suicidal ideation I've had for +15 years

I'm so broken why bother. I don't even smile because my smile looks so horrible. My upper jaw literally fits inside of my lower jaw and when I talk it sounds like I have down syndrome at worst and a lisp at best.

Or I just off myself