thank you, and yes i’ve dressed like this for very long and people refer to me as male around her, whenever i pick up a delivery for her the delivery man says “do i give it to the young man at the door?” So she has witnessed a few times how people see me and knows that i love it when that happens and teases me by saying “bet you’re happy now that the guy thought you were a boy”. But when the trans thing came up all i saw was denial. It seems that despite her denying it she just doesn’t want a trans kid. Even though she said she wouldn’t care if i was trans but i’m “just not and she can tell”. I think for now i should just graduate and go on from there and try not to worry about getting through to her, i’ll keep a distance and we wont be as close but i’ll be respectful of course and will keep up some small talk whenever i can.