the desire to get married this year has taught me a lot. i spend almost everyday thinking about it. talking to different guys, going on apps, people my family introduced etc. i wanted a partner and i really tried to find one, but allah had other plans. talking to so many people has taken a toll on my mental health too. At times i felt like i was wasting my time or he was wasting my time. i felt undesirable, i caught feelings, i got hurt, i felt humiliated, i felt this immense pressure as well. like if i didn’t find a husband this year my chances were even lower. Seeing people in my circle and social media getting married left and right, i felt like i was the last one to be picked. It sounds cliche as hell but i’m gonna focus on anything else next year, seriously. i’m burnt out ✌️