Ok if you want to talk to me I will respond but don't get angry at me ok. I don't hate you and I'm in the world. So let's knock that one off as that's self evidently not true. You can't live without suffering, Buddha figured that one out 3000 years ago. So the choice is always: can I bear the suffering and continue? The fact you are still here means you have something to keep you going. Something to live for. Maybe it's a friend, a pet, a job, whatever, a TV show you like. Maybe just a fear of death. But if you fear death, that must mean that you put a higher value on life. My friend committed suicide. He had a terrible addiction. It ruined his life. He genuinely saw death as preferable. If you are trapped in a high-rise building that's burning, you will jump. However if your building is not on fire, and is just smelly and full of cockroaches, and maybe there's a tenant that won't leave you alone (trauma), you don't have to jump yet. The fact you haven't tells me that life hasn't become truly dark yet. I just read about a man who forgot his kid in the car and the kid died from heat stress. He killed himself 4 hours later. He was in a burning building. Life had lost all value. People usually trick themselves into thinking their life is without value. That guy didn't, but most people are fixable. And I bet you are too, which is why you value yourself enough to go see a therapist. And I hope the absolute best for you. Life is worth living. We have no choice except death and who knows how terrible death could be. It could be worse than life.