I think I might. I'm always a little hesitant just because I know how I can get but I'm thinking this might be one of those times. No you're helping more than you might think. I've been to a lot of different doctors and they always tell me how "difficult" this is to treat and I "seem to have a handle on things". I've found a bunch of stuff online to help myself and i really do think it's worked well. This is out of left field. I've taken your advice and am blasting some music and doing my makeup. I might go for a run (I know make up then run seems backwards but what works works right). Hopfully I'll be calm enough to talk to him. As for what he likes I've done about everything I possibly can and it didn't help. I just felt like I would never measure up. On a whim I decided to just do all the things I've always liked the way they looked and forget what people might think or like or not like. I didn't actually forget it but I hyped myself up enough and it actually helped. I now look a lot different and it changed something because after I was able to find things I actually like so that was a huge help. I still have trouble sometimes but I like the way I look. My body is still a huge issue since I have 3 kids and I have a ton of extra skin in all the wrong places and everything's just not where it should be. That's my hurdle I'm working on right now. Wow this is very long. I really do want to thank you for talking to me. Its helped a lot. You're awesome.