After 3.5 years of trying to conceive and things being particularly difficult lately, we finally decided it’s time to tell more family. Up until now, only our parents knew. Yesterday we told our first sibling and a huge weight has been lifted.

They were very supportive and validated everything I said/feel, but I can’t help but keep thinking “did I say too much” when I was saying how I feel about announcements. They totally got it, no judgement at all. I guess that after all of these years of this situation being private, it feels kind of crazy to admit these feelings so freely outloud. Almost like I’ve exposed this other side to myself that I’ve repressed for so long. Now I’m worrying I said too much, but it’s based entirely on my own insecurities as they were so understanding, supportive and validating.

Anyway, I’m glad we did it and it’s such a relief that I now that I’m not keeping a secret from those closest to me. I don’t think we’ll be telling friends though. That step just feels too intimidating for us