Today is hitting me hard and I'm heartbroken and furious. I have waited my whole life for this moment. I feel robbed and I'm watching everyone else walk away disappointed and burdened with a Blessing I would give anything to have. Literally anything.

My HSG didn't work because Vaginismus made it impossible. So now I'm waiting for the hospital to call with an appointment for a laprascopic HSG. Which means general anesthesia for a basic test. My Gyne thought I was a little nuts, but I told him this is what I want and I will do what it takes.

So to all the idiots I see lost in their phone for hours while their little one begs for their attention and develops attachment insecurity from an inconsistently parent...Fuck you. You have no idea what you have.