Crying for silly reasons?

Yes! I'm an INTP and I deal with embarrassing situations dealing with my emotions from time to time. I always over think situations which often causes stress, anxiety, and fear. I don't let it show and I am just like a blank faced robot until a certain person or event triggers something inside of me and I turn into a heap of a sobbing angry mess. It's weird, but during these episodes part of my mind is totally aware of what I'm doing and that it is embarrassing, wrong, irrational, and stupid, so the whole time I'm crying out my feelings my mind is screaming at me to stop. Afterwards I always feel terrible and drained for a short time, and then I push it out of my mind and go on as if nothing happened. My parents think there's something wrong with me but it's how my emotions work. It's the same thing for anger. When I get angry, it's almost always because of something that is outside of myself. Everyday interruptions, people, or things that are putting pressure on me. I hate being ordered or having to follow a strict guideline. When I get angry, I am ruthless. I will seriously turn into a hell demon one moment, then you come to me an hour later and I'm normal again. The emotion I show the most is excitement. I will explode and go on and on about something I'm interested in. Some examples: A few months ago I worked hard on an English paper, but failed! I have never failed a school assignment and I freaked out and just cried... during class!!! I felt horrible afterwards. Another time, I got angry at my youth pastor (but I didn't explode I gave him evil looks and the silent treatment which was stupid but he got the point) He was mad at my sister (she's opposite my personality) for being loud and obnoxious. Then he turned on me, behaving and sitting to the side trying to blend in, and he called ME out in front of everyone and said in a rude voice "And you! Why don't you ever say anything?! Huh?!" I was a little freaked out and just said "Umm..... I don't know." He kind of yelled at me "Do you even have any friends?!" And I didn't really consider anyone there my friend because I choose friends carefully and those people are loud and crazy and they make me uncomfortable so I said no. Then he got really angry and started going on and on and I got REALLY angry and I still haven't spoken to him. But yeah I get emotional after keeping it in for a while or when something happens.

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