I'm really behind with my career, which feels bad because I had the potential to be ahead of other people. I skipped multiple classes when I was younger but due to mental health issues I had to retake even more classes when I was older, and now all my former classmates are more successful than I am.

On top of that my family is pretty much breaking apart at the moment. I don't have friends. And even now, one year after the break up with my ex-girlfriend I find out about more and more things she did and I have to honestly ask myself if she might be a narcissist or worse.

I feel like I can achieve everything that I desire, so I got that going for me.

I don't feel like God has forsaken me. There are things going wrong in my life, but honestly, if I would work hard enough and if I would have listenend to my gut feeling in many cases, I might have been able to fix or prevent them.