i mean it's not that simple, but yes i agree with it mostly. 2 years ago i had a lot of money in the bank, a nice car, a great job in the field i was pursuing. I was getting my life back together extremely quickly. I had accomplished all my yearlong goals within 3 months.

i was approaching 4 months clean and was putting all my money into stocks as i had always wanted and was getting my scholarship and grant money and decided to use one time. one time only. i hadn't thought about the oxy or dilaudid in months. well, i went right back on it. i've lost it all since then and got on the needle after i read my dads suicide letter. the years before i had ruined a 3 year relationship ( i broke up with her because i lost my virginity to her and didn't want to only have sex with one person, stupid iknow lol) but anyways i threw away my friends over those years and by the time i was clean i had very few friends left. i went to meetings and made all new friends and had all the things i mentioned earlier.

i lost those and then lost the new friends because i relapsed. ( i was there for so many people in the meetings as my sponsor told me to be. 225 meetings in 90 days. these people were not there for me when i relapsed) but anyways since this time when i lost scholarships, money, put myself in debt,ruined my 800+ credit score, now i got kicked out of my program in college after having 86 of the 120 credits. i've lost all hope. i lost my family now too. the only one who hasn't given up is my mom and my family holds it against her for not giving up even thigh i never stole or did anything terrible to them. point being after all this i have nobody left. the hopes and dreams are gone too now.

i'm prescribed the drugs i'm addicted to. i have legitimate issues and would be given them at nearly any doctor. I'm not asking for sympathy from this,but i just wanted to inform people that the truth is since here is nobody left besides my mom i have lost the desire to stop. i still want to stop on occasion, but with all the withdrawals from opiates and how bad my family is towards me i just give up. i have pretty much no one in my life anymore so why stop. i have no happiness left. once i lost family, quit job, lost car moony and everything else i lost all hope . i'm mid 20's and it's just too hard to start over and make new friends. i have trust issues from being used so many times and stolen from, from supposed "friends." i just don't even know how to go about life anymore.

opiates has also stolen my sex drive and i'm straight and it had me questioning myself because i never care to have sex with women anymore. i don't like men and never have touched and male and wouldn't, but the opiates have messed me up to the point where i am like asexual basically and made me think something was wrong and that i had to be bisexual or something because i don't care to have sex with anyone or anything after having normal relationships for years. stay away from opiates everyone. please. my life might not be worth saving, but yours still is. i once had the same dreams everyone has had and i even set myself up to achieve them, but opiates stole everything from me. i don't know what happens from here, but i hope i can help one person from them reading this, take care reddit,