Thank you very much, and I knew I would come off that way and would like to dispel this impression if at all possible. So to address what was brought up.

I had previously discussed with my friends and what seems to be emphasized are the points they brought up, which I hoped would bring greater clarity in the nature of our relationship if it could help my case.

The point of the alcohol was meant to be taken as though they'd sobered up at the end of the night and had done things both under the influence and lucidly to show I didn't take advantage of a drunk, whereas I had maintained a consistent drunkenness. It's also worth noting, that until that last moment, any interactions were initiated by her, if it changes anything at all.

The unfortunate thing is that the party consisted of three other people, all of who went along with the lie. One reason I brought up our mutual pasts is,and I should have mentioned this, is that she did have a past in grabbing my hand like was mentioned.

If you want the specific reason for the porn, we were watching music videos and one I forget the name of, where a good looking is a stalker/serial killer came up. Around when she grabbed my hand. One girl said how that looked like her favorite video which lead us to watching it.

Another reason mentioning our pasts is important is because the unfortunate emotional blackmail was commonplace with her and had never failed to convince me, so at the time it seemed rational. The school is aware I've been blackmailed like that for years.

I do understand I fucked up and that consent was passed which I have tried my best to show. Something that was discussed was that the presence of her friends in the room, the fact that I stopped everything when asked and before inserting in addition to the fact that I slept over afterwards makes me feel liberal to claim that she did not resist at the time. The only reason I say "Falsely" so proudly is because the official story I was accused of and what people believe is so distant while that would be more hazy had she told the truth.

That said, where I wanted to see if it's possible to press charges is aside from the expulsion itself. Though school had expelled me over a story which changed to cover up loopholes, from an accuser who fabricated a story before. What most importantly and the only thing that really outrages me was the counsellor's attempt to have my psychologist diagnose me. That said I don't really have intention of suing anyone as is.

But what I had really hoped do was rebuild my friendship with the person in question like she had intended it. We'd been through some pretty significant fights in the past and though she may have had a change of hearts she admitted at one point that she didn't want this accusation to go so far and was not informed that I would be expelled. When she talked to me to become friends, I had the impression though it could be horribly wrong, that pride was what held her back, which was a recurring theme in our friendship and her last accusation.

That said, you seem like a very understanding person and I would like maybe some feedback on any possible routes to take, such as what to do at my next school when a rumor springs that I'm a rapist. Or perhaps the next time someone confronts me, to make them understand something even as small as "I didn't violently rape her", "I just unintentionally did some things while we were both drunk that crossed the line"

Thank you