It's completely normal to have feelings like that, especially only four months after a rape.

I was sexually assaulted when I was 16. I'm 21 now and I still haven't gotten over my "fear"of men. I don't like being in a close proximity with men (such as at the store, or shopping). When that happens, I immediately escape from whatever situation I'm in, just to get away. I'm a college student as well and I take all online classes, just so I won't have to be in a classroom with a lot of guys.

It affects your life tremendously when something like that happens. I waited for three years before I sought out treatment and that was my biggest mistake. Sure, I'm a little better now, but those first three years after what happened to me were the worst three years of my life.

Talk to someone. Vent. Whether it be your parents, family, friends, a teacher, someone online, or a professional. Talk to anyone. Get your feelings out there. Cry, scream, argue. Do whatever it takes for you to relieve yourself of the burden this has caused. Also, invest in a taser. Carrying something like that around with you, especially because you take public transport, will ease your mind somewhat.

I can't say that you'll ever get over your fear of men, but it will eventually get easier to deal with. Trust me. Just talk to someone, anyone, and let it all out. Don't let it fester in your mind.