Help. (Military)

I'm in a similar spot, just different diagnosis list by a little. Always been highly functional, meds or not, only difference is one way I'm barely happier, and one way I'm not. The stigma angers me, I know how you feel.

Love shooting guns, hiking, patriot, good in school, don't hurt others. It's bullshit that a diagnosis holds you back. It was my dream too, it hurts so bad. When I learned that I didn't have a chance, I felt so hopeless and crushed.

Right now I'm planning on going to EMT school first. You know you. You have these diagnosis, that's all this means. YOU can be something. If you can do it, while I wouldn't advise it, lying is possible, if you haven't ever been committed or convicted. But if a security clearance comes up (you are given a flight role, become an officer, etc), you're fucked when they find records. But there are other ways, like what I'm doing. I'm going to prove that I'm capable, and work my way up. Maybe into the forces, maybe become a cop, or a firefighter.

This doesn't mean you have to sit around, sedate yourself, and choose a low stress, non-service job. Honestly I'd rather kill myself than do THAT. I would, if a desk job was all I could hope for, without a day of hesitation. Only thing that keeps me alive is the thought that I can serve my country still.

We're unique people, with unique needs. If you love America, and feel its calling, it needs you. There is a Federal agency, ER, or first responder department, that NEEDS you. Lots of people are serving with the same ferocity of a soldier, they'll just never get the same acknowledgement. Don't give up on life, don't give up on the country. If you can be strong, there is a service that will take you. <3

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