I am having the same problem right now and I don’t know how to tell if it’s real or not. The first time I saw my current girlfriend, my heart nearly leapt out of my chest. I hadn’t felt something like that in years. And when we started talking, we totally connected. I have never met someone like her. I told her I loved her a month in, and had been talking future plans way before that. I was entering a depressive episode but then I met her and felt so good. But now I feel myself entering depressive again (it’s that time of year) and I am second-guessing myself. I don’t know if I’m having mania or a mixed episode. It feels effortless around her and I’m really comfortable telling her things, like super dark shit about me. And I feel like she really sees me. I don’t know what I’m doing.