How you can hold everything inside u ?

Talking about organs, I have bones that keep the whole thing closed. Talking about emotions, passing time alone helps me. When I feel the most my insecurety problems is when I'm in social situations where I feel I can't stop comparing me with other ppl or when my frustration starts coming out. Passing time alone helps me to control it, but I still cannot control it as I would want. I already passed through a few times when my emotions came out in an explosive way. I had a discussion on 31st December with one of my best friends and my anger made me say things that rn I know they were very insensitive and hurtful. She has been since new year without talking to me, and I hate myself bc of that

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