So I have never ever experienced scary, predatory behavior from men, up until a few weeks ago. Here is what happened and I am still tensing up thinking about it: There was this huge town festival at my town, like every year. Everyone puts on a costume and starts drinking at like 10am. Ive decided to skip the day drinking and go straight to our local club. Its about a 10 minute walk from my parents house. Ive ALWAYS always walked home at night from that club. I used to go to that club almost every weekend for years. No matter how shitfaced I was, I walked home. My parents used to say: CALL US WHEN YOU WANT US TO COME PICK YOU UP, NO MATTER WHAT TIME IT IS, and I was always like yeah yeah.
ANYWAY: So I had a super fun time, honestly, I can't remember when I last had so much fun, I danced, met people I haven't seen in ages and got myself absolutely hammered. Everyone was hammered. So when I realized Im too drunk for my own good, I decided to go home. I had enough money for a taxi and full phone battery but I decided to walk. Like I always would.
So I stumble home, literally stumbling down this dark road and I suddenly realize there is a guy I dont know walking next to me. So im like HEY WHATS UP WHO ARE YOU, im chatting to him, not thinking much of it, well I was too drunk to walk a straight line so thinking wasnt really something i could do anyway.
He tells me, in very broken german (im german) that he lives somewhere near. And then, before I could realize what was happening, he grabs my shoulder and pulls me around towards him, and tries to get into my shirt. He violently tried to get his hands down my bra and I was trying to fight him off. I was so shocked, like WTF IS HAPPENING. We were fighting for a couple of seconds until I managed to get scream NO!!! I ran home, like sprinting home like a maniac. I couldn't believe what just happened.
I went to the police the next day, but I could barely remember what he look liked, it was very dark and I was drunk. My dad convinced me that filing a police report would only do more harm to me, because I was so drunk, and it would end up in my file that I was wasted which would make me not very credible in court.
So yeah.. thats what happened a couple of weeks ago. I stopped walking my dogs in the evening, my SO does it now. I kind of blame myself for what happened. I shouldnt have gotten so drunk, I shouldve realized that the situation was weird when I noticed him walking next to me.