Argh. Husband did the same to me... a little before we got married hed choose porn over me. As i said, im low sex drive ... so for me to repeatedly be left in sexy pjs alone in bed... was like wow. Probably got a lot of body hang ups from that as well.

Im beginning to realise this shouldnt be an issue. It shouldnt be popping up so much in my life... and i shouldnt be making room in our relationship for his porn. I guess I feel bad because I dont want sex as much as him, therefore he needs porn to make up for it and get the release im denying him.

I just dont know, im not a dude. I dont have this daily urge to unload. Even on the occassions I masturbate, I dont need porn. So I dont know what its like TO NEED porn.

Obviously its a popular and booming industry haha .... and the thing is, if he was watching the paid professionals do what they do ... I probably wouldnt be so bothered by it. But its normal every day girls in their bedroom or wherever... its more than just a visual aid to get off to... its almost like creepy voyeurism .... its messed up. He may as well be using tinder or something... trading personal nude pics.

And I dont want to think of my husband that way. I dont want to know thats what he thinks and looks for. It infects daily life. .. if theres an obviously attractive girl out on the wild, like all other men... hes gonna stare. Hell, he might even go back and tell all his friends about the hot slice he saw... and I cant get it out of my head that he thinks of random women that way. And thats what he'll look for later that night. Real girls. Seriously.... would he not be upset if I had a collection of dick pics on my phone? Just normal everyday dude dicks that I get off to??

Fuck man!! It kills me!!!

.... I went on a rant