I'm (20f) tired of not being respected by my family and them walking all over me. I'm not sure how I can keep going on and stay strong.

Thank you for taking the time to reply. I started doing drugs after being assaulted by a second person (sexually), the first time (with someone different) was multiple times when I was 15. I reported the second one months after but the police didn't do anything (I studied criminal justice btw). It was pretty upsetting to have a system that I trusted in fail me. I don't do them for attention, in fact I tried to hide it for quite sometime until my mom found out and didn't even say I should quit. I'm pretty much high all day so I'm not thinking about what happened or having to deal with getting upset. I've gotten better at dealing with stuff by just leaving when my family tries to argue and when I get back I'm usually ignored more. I know I need to take control of my life but half the time I don't care about myself, I feel as though other don't obviously. I don't mind watching the animals, but I wanted to look for jobs and are complaining about me not having a job, then they'll say you need to go watch the house over an hour away for a week with no pay. If I get accepted into the college I want I can move out by next summer. Thankfully I make pretty good grades(only being I take medicine for my adhd) so I could possibly get accepted and scholarships. Believe it or not during my teen years I did nothing but try to please them. Never went and partied, never did any drugs or drank, made only A's and B's, started college early, got a job my senior year even though they wanted me to focus on school and I got multiple scholarships. Still wasn't good enough for my family and I'm still getting treated the same way with what I'm doing now lol.

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