I know everyone isn't perfect and I was willing to overlook the fact that tbh I'm pretty sure she's addicted to coco and probably alcohol but she was able to overlook A LOT with me too. See that's the issue I feel like the toxic people around her pushed her to be like this towards the last 6 weeks of our relationship her parents grew to hate me and in turn I could see it rubbing off on her too. It's weird to say a 24 year old is influenced by her parents but she's close with them I guess.

What makes you think we should stay a way so much though I'm really curious because I honestly would die for this girl and that's the sad part I kinda want to I know I'm sounding very dramatic but the way I've been feeling since all this has happened recently is just borderline insane.

I'm not able to eat much of anything I get sick regularly I've been self medicating with a lot of bad shit I really shouldn't be and tbh just to make myself feel like normal enough of a human being I'm poppin xans just to go to work I feel like when I'm not on some form of bull my mind just constantly screams at me I'd do anything just to fall asleep with her 1 more time

Sorry if I'm being weird but this is honestly the most I've been able to get off my chest everyone in my support group just wants to give me more drugs until I "forget" about her