Feeling stupid, and being stupid are two different things. You seem to be very articulate, and to have a pretty good handle on whats going on in your life around you. Being aware is a pretty smart trait to have.

No one has it figured out at 25, and if they do theyre an asshole. Okay, not actually. I mean good for them, but theyre not the majority. Its okay if we're still figuring out what we want to do. Hell, some 60 year old woman just finished her phD at my local university. Seriously, life is a go-at-your-own-pace kind of thing. She probably felt stupid at 25 too. Let's get through this mid-20s bullshit thing together :)

I also forget words, or where I'm going with a story, and my memory is shit, but that doesn't make us any less smarter. It's just areas we need to work on.

We're all fighting our own battles, but that doesn't have to affect your self-worth. You are so much more than a peice of meat. You don't have to whore yourself out because you feel that's the only way you'll feel validated.

Being poor sucks, believe me. Having a butt ton of friends is over rated (and expensive). Quality over quantity. Also, alot of people came from humble beginnings. I know its scary to keep trying when you're used to failure, but something has to give eventually.

This is getting preachy, Im sorry.

I just want you to know that someone is proud of you, regardless of how you feel. Someone loves you. Your two friends probably love you too. Open up. Talk to them. You might be giving off vibes that maybe you don't like them very much either.

This was probably your throwaway account, but if you check it, please don't be afraid to send a pm.