what you fail to see is that everything is by God's works not by your own hands You think that you see it but you don't. You apparently think that if we try to do what is right out of love for Christ that that's a work leading to salvation. You have to have a balance and you have none. salvation comes with signs, repentance and turning from your sins is one of them, as well as the fruits of the spirit. if you don't have those things you should know that you are not a Christian because God said that Christians have those things. now stop talking on and on about nonsense and address that address that you have to have the fruits of the spirit to be a Christian and that you have to be repentant to be a Christian. One more thousandth of a time I will tell you repentance is to turn from sin and turning from sin is not doing it over and over and over again. there is no help for you if You don't accept The words of Christ himself. this is what he said not me so your problem is with his word You're upset that his salvation isn't going to come on your terms and unfortunately it's not. salvation comes on the terms of scripture and God's will.