In kindergarten and first grade, I was very good at talking to people and other kids my age. But towards the end of first grade, something went wrong.

At the time, I think i did it as a joke. I pretended that I lost my ability to talk one day, so I stayed dead silent all day. But something went wrong inside my head I guess, and I barely even whispered around anyone except my family for over 3 years.

I ended up moving in the middle of 5th grade, and I was talking again, though only if I was spoken to, and because circumstances at the time more or less forced me to relearn social skills. Since then, I've gotten better and better at talking to people, but I still just don't have the ability to start my own conversations, not irl anyway. Even online, I tend to write out entire comments such as this one, then immediately take it all back.

I do stuff like that nearly on a daily basis, making a post on Reddit, Twitter, etc, and never actually posting it. The fact that people will often bitch about my occasional grammar/spelling errors doesn't help, because I'll go though a post to proofread it, and just get exhausted and forget about it. Even this post. I'm contemplating whether or not to post it because I accidentally made it longer than I thought it was gonna be when I started...