Kinda need some advice myself. A few years back I used to be the go to counselor for my friends and I made it a point to constantly check up on everyone to make sure everyone was alright and I wouldn't rest until anyone who was troubled or was feeling down was better again. I felt great being able to help others, made me feel like my own life had meaning again (formerly depressed myself).

Then it got to a point where I started seeing just how little of an impact my help really had on my friends. They'd either get into deeper trouble and I was at a loss on how to help them or they'd say they were fine, only for me to learn from other people they're actually still troubled, or even worse but they were putting up a front to not worry me. Months of feeling like my help was useless, getting in too deep with other people's issues that I couldn't find a way out for them, and seeing how I wasn't solving anyone's problems broke me.

It's been years and I'm a shell of my former self. I see someone in trouble, depressed or suicidal now and I can't bring myself to step in anymore. I fear I cannot truly help them and it'll weigh over me indefinitely, when I myself am suffering from anxiety nowadays. I see them slowly wither away and can't do anything to help or I'm paralyzed with fear when I try to help, realizing just how powerless I am to help.

What do I do ? I'm on the verge of losing so many relationships I've built over the years because me becoming broken had made me a shut in, too afraid to get involved with people again. I just don't have the confidence I once did that whatever problem people faced, I could help them out.