Do I have a toxic friend? I go to a high school that is about 90% Chinese. Since I have dark skin and don't speak Chinese I get called a “banana” (white on the inside, yellow on the outside) and white-washed.

I have this one white best friend that I've known since elementary school. We became friends because no one else would talk to me.

I hate hanging out with her and try my best to not see her because every time we talk she insults me. Even back then, every recess she would count how many friends she has then laugh at me because I only had a few. Also, she made this HUGE deal about how my grad dress was so incredibly ugly.

She rants and gets into big arguments with me about how "fat" and “white” I am. I am 5 feet 5 inches and 110 pounds which is not skinny but she is around my height and is sorry to be rude, the fattest girl in my school. She constantly makes fun of me because of my dark skin colour. She brags about how she has huge boobs and always brings up how I am flat-chested which really hurts.

One time she got so mad at me and we got into this big argument that lasted like half an hour on how I am a “wannabe white girl”. During the argument I asked her how I am "trying to be white" and she said I wear leggings, uggs, drink Starbucks, and I just am.

I don’t understand why I can’t do these things without being accused of being white. I don’t like having a friend who is always insulting my appearance and my body in every possible way and I can’t help being dark skinned.

Sometimes she can be so cruel that I feel like telling her we should stop being friends but then I think about how we have been friends for over a decade. My parents keep inviting her over even though I never want to see her anymore. I tell them all she does to me but they say that is just her personality.

I don't speak or "act" Chinese because my parents are not from China, they grew up in West - Indies islands like Jamaica.