i wanted to do my a levels this year but my parents told me it’s a waste of money.. school is really expensive here so i didn’t want to make them pay if we couldn’t afford it. i don’t have a choice but to study here now. i hate it so much i don’t know why we ever moved here. school was so bad and i thought that maybe if i got through it things would get better but they’re not .. sometimes i think i’m okay and that i can work hard to make things better for myself and that i have a reason to keep living but then something happens like my mum screaming at me for not wearing my scarf properly and throwing my clothes away because they’re inappropriate or having to rip pages out of my diary just incase anyone reads it and finds out i’m gay .. it’s things like that that make me feel hopeless and tired